What Is Up?!

 It's been a minute!

Sorry, I know I disappeared but there has ALOT going on. First, I turned 40!

Yep the big 40, and it was a blast. Had a bowling party with cupcakes made to look like ramen noodle cups. We had tons of fun, I got to see all my friends, and I got to eat tasty food! Best way to turn a new decade if you ask me. 

Then, right after that I got a cold. My body was like, "I'm done. Time to rest." That was a boat load of fun, but it was short lived. Which brings me to another tick mark on my new life. When I was younger, thinner, I never got sick and if I did then it was over in a flash. As I got older, fatter, and my health declined I would get sick so freaking easy and I would stay sick for at least a week or more. Even then I would carry symptoms for weeks afterward. This time I felt fine and I wouldn't have even called off work but I lost my voice and I was feeling really rough for one day.

Yeah, ONE day!

That is a big improvement over at the minimum being a week. Honestly, I probably wouldn't have gotten sick at all if I wasn't pushing so hard for some long. With the holidays, my birthday, work, and all these health things I had going on. It was too much for an extended amount of time. And for once I didn't get my husband's cold he had right before my birthday. I gave him my after cold. That's a big win. Amazing what losing 50 pounds can do. 

Oh to health goodies. I haven't lost any weight. Honestly I'm sick of this runt I'm in. I have been floating in the 250s for nearly 3 months, and I am done.

I'm so done I asked to be moved up a dose with my Zepbound. Now the last time I went to 10mg it triggered my anxiety in a really bad way. I was all over the damn place, but this time I'm feeling good about it. I've been on 7.5 for a long while. My body has fully adjusted to it, and I'm on new anxiety and depression medication. Stuff that works better with my mental health. On top of that I'm no longer on my birth control, which was messing with a lot of my hormones and other things. Basically keeping me unhealthy. 

I am unhappy to report, after eightish long, happy, happy years, I regained my period. My doctor loves this. Me, not so much. I was happy without my period, but I guess this is normal so yay for normal.

(booooooo)

So what is next?

Well, I just started the 10s back up and so far my appetite is back to where it was before I started my depression meds, which grew my appetite. Which makes me happy because it might jump start my weight loss. I'm very happy about this because I might lose even more since I am off my birth-control. Which caused me to gain a considerable amount of weight before.

However, despite all this goodness from weight loss I have found some draw backs. First, my upper arms are saggy. They have always been big, but now they are sagging. Before they were tight and big, not so much anymore. 

Second, I jiggle. Like all over!

I'm like Jigglypuff. My husband loves it. Me, I'm indifferent about it. It's not bad, it's not good it's simply different. Next, my left butt-cheek and upper thigh goes numb. I guess my body was used to all the padding, and now that I don't have that my nerves don't know where to store themselves. So I randomly get a pinched nerve that makes like a sleep feeling in that area. Interesting problem to have. It doesn't hurt anything, it simply feels really strange at times.

Then there is my left foot. Well, both my feet but mostly my left. The bottom of my foot toward the back has been killing me. It feels like I have been walking around with bare feet on concrete. In other words, like I bruised it. Come to find out it's a result of my weight loss, because surprisingly I have lost a lot of a weight in my feet. Simply put, the padding is no longer there to cushion my weight, so it is in fact  bruising my foot. So days is better than others, but others it's hard to walk. The only way to help it is to rest your foot, and loose weight. 

Well, I'm trying.

I also wear cushioned shoes to help with the day to day walking. It helps, but it sucks there are shoes of mine I can no longer wear at the moment. Which brings me to the biggest sucky part about losing weight. I miss my clothes!!!! While I'm happy to be down two sizes there are also outfits I miss. Shirts that were so big I looked like a child in their parents clothing. I have still hung on to a few of them and only wear them around the house, but for the most part a lot of my clothes are newer. In fact I just had to go on a shopping binge to get new spring shirts for work because I had nothing that fit. Everything I wore last year was WAYYYYYYYY too big. Good problem to have, but some outfits made me sad to lose.  

So that is where I'm at right now. I hit a valley in my weight loss, which really made me struggle with keeping up with the shots, but I'm on the other side of it. Hopefully. It has pushed me to make some changes in my life. Like eating more fruits and vegetables, and get my downstairs gym in order. Which I'm still working on. But I'm looking forward to this next step in my journey on Zepbound. 

100's here I come!!!